When I Donât Feel at Home in This World Anymore won the Grand Jury Prize at Sundance this year, the accolade made a lot of sense. While the film was the directorial debut for actor Macon Blair, heâd had success in Park City before, having played the lead role in Jeremy Saulnierâs 2014 standout Blue Ruin. And it had premiered to a rapturous reception on the festivalâs opening night, quickly becoming one of the most talked-about movies at Sundance â not only for its quality, but also because it seemed to engage with a feeling that many people were tangling with during the presidential inauguration that same weekend. (A common joke: that its title was oddly prescient.)
But in one major way, the movieâs win was historic: The movie had been funded by Netflix, making it the first Sundance Grand Jury winner to belong to a streaming service. Now, the company is releasing the film to its 94 million worldwide subscribers Friday, allowing I Donât Feel at Home to take full advantage of the buzz from its Sundance success. And the movie is a true Sundance success story, with the festival playing a major part in both its creation and reception.
Blairâs life as a filmmaker dates back to Megacop, a Super 8 movie he made in the sixth grade with Saulnier in their hometown of Richmond, Virginia. When Blair began trying to make a career as an actor after graduating from college, he always had an idea that heâd end up back behind the camera.
âI was always trying to make sure that I had parallel tracks going,â Blair says. âI was going on auditions, trying to get acting work, and at the same time I was writing scripts, trying to get writing work, and part of that was thinking about how in the future, I also wanted to figure out how to direct something.â
While working on Saulnierâs Green Room, in which he plays a ladder-climbing skinhead named Gabe, Blair was approached by producers Anish Savjani and Neil Kopp, who, through their company filmscience, have produced films for a number of major indie filmmakers, including Saulnier, Kelly Reichardt, and Joe Swanberg. Savjani and Kopp asked if Blair had any scripts heâd written, and when he said he had one that he wanted to hopefully direct, they told him to bring them the project first as soon as it was ready.
I Donât Feel at Home started for Blair with a tone in mind, rather than a literal narrative. âI knew I wanted to do something that was more or less a crime story,â he says. âSomething that was pulpy and fun, a friendship story and a love story of some kind.â
He began to assemble the framework of a story that would support those elements, and arrived at the idea of a nurse whose home is robbed (which actually happened to Blair in real life) and decides sheâs going to find the criminals herself (which Blair did not). As guiding lights, he mentions Alex Coxâs cult hit Repo Man and Steven Soderberghâs Out of Sight, âfun, rock-and-roll movies that are pleasing to watch,â as well as Hal Ashbyâs Harold and Maude and Hal Hartleyâs Trust (for the relationships); and Don Siegelâs Charley Varrick, Arthur Pennâs Night Movies, and Martin Scorseseâs Taxi Driver (for the sleaze). Music also played a major role in defining the filmâs feel and aesthetic; Blair even took the unusual step of writing specific songs into the script, a tactic thatâs usually discouraged for beginner screenwriters because of the uncertainty over rights.
At Sundance, I Donât Feel at Home felt charmed: While most filmmakers were having panic attacks over whether their movies would sell to a distributor, Blair had sold his to Netflix before filming even began; he arrived in Park City already knowing the day it would be released. But in reality, the process was far from smooth.
âThe shorthand version of it does sound like I just tap-danced into this room and was like, âHey fellas, give me some money!ââ Blair jokes. âAnd there was an aspect in which things happened in a very lubricated kind of way. But the larger picture is it had been a year before that of pitching it all over the place and having a difficult time.â
Even with filmscience onboard, financiers were concerned over Blairâs status as a first-time director, and they were nearing an impasse: The window for production was fast approaching, but they still hadnât secured the necessary money or cast to move forward. Just then, another producer, Mette-Marie Kongsved of XYZ Films reached out to ask Blair if he had any scripts she could read. When he sent her I Donât Feel at Home, she took it to Netflix, and they pitched the film to the streaming service at Sundance 2016.
âThey just very simply asked me, âWho do you want to play the leads?ââ Blair says. âThat had been a hurdle for us, because I wanted Melanie [Lynskey] and Elijah [Wood], and they were not on the list of folks that were going to get the financing from some of these other places. And they just said, âGreat! Letâs go with that.â So believe me, after a year of having that same conversation, to have them react like that, it absolutely felt charmed.â
After a year of hearing no, they were in preproduction literally weeks later, with Lynskey starring, Wood playing her oddball neighbor turned sidekick, on-the-verge actress Jane Levy as one of the villains, and David Yow â the lead singer of legendary rock band the Jesus Lizard â as the main antagonist. According to Ian Bricke, Netflixâs director of Global Content Acquisition, heâd had his eye on Blair since 2004, when the actor appeared in a short film of Saulnierâs that played a film festival where he sat on the jury. Bricke kept track of Blairâs career, and says he enjoyed his subsequent scripts; producing the movie was an easy decision.
âFor us, weâre always looking to find those films that punch above their weight for smaller, underserved audiences. You hope that for at least some of the folks that will see a movie like this on Netflix, it will be their new favorite movie,â Bricke said in an email to Vulture. âItâs something totally new with some of the DNA of things that we know people are looking for â mischief, mayhem, a badass but very real female lead. In combination with the filmscience guys who have a great history of making really good films in a certain budget range, it was an easy decision to jump in on this one even though Macon was a first-time director. Also, the fact that we were able to cast it right away â Melanie Lynskey and Elijah Wood signed on because of Macon and his track record â was a huge plus.â
Production was a smooth ride; Blair relied on a veteran assistant director to help compensate for his inexperience. He compares the experience to a summer camp, not least because he made sure to follow a priceless piece of advice: âMake sure that the crew is fed well.â The finished film successfully achieves Blairâs intentions: Itâs a tonal roller coaster that shifts from low-key drama to broad comedy to gritty crime to borderline horror, all handled with equal comfort.
âI enjoy having something be carrying along at a certain temperature and then suddenly shift into something totally different,â Blair says. âIf I make a mixtape for somebody, I will tend to put some, like, really evil black metal next to something like the Carpenters. To me, it feels totally fine.â
The alienation thatâs at the heart of Lynskeyâs character gives the story a central core, and made it feel especially timely. At the festival, Blair, Lynskey, and Wood weighed in on why they thought that was the case. âI think Ruthâs mantra in the movie was that she wants people to stop being assholes, and Iâve felt like that recently,â Lynskey told Vulture.
âIn writing it, anytime I would take a break and look at the news, it would seem like a steady cascade of disastrous things, and I think that informed Ruthâs worldview,â Blair explained. âPerhaps itâs not totally correct, but I think a lot of people do probably feel, I know I do, that things are coming apart at the seams, and I think thatâs what I was trying to have her feeling, at least at the start of the movie.â
âAnd cynicism, which seems to be rampant, and which Iâm really disheartened by,â added Wood.
If you felt that way on the weekend of the inauguration, those feelings probably havenât gone away just yet, which means that I Donât Feel at Home in This World Anymore is likely to feel just as relevant to Netflix subscribers who see it pop up on their home screens as it did to the shivering hordes at Sundance. That, of course, is the selling point of working with Netflix, aside from the fact that their pockets are deeper than just about anyone elseâs: What you sacrifice in the initial burst of a theatrical release, you make up for in potential omnipresence.
âOf course, a theatrical release is awesome, and I grew up falling in love with movies well before streaming and all that stuff came about, but when I really look at the advantages â going to see a movie in a theater, on a big screen, thatâs kind of irreplaceable,â Blair says. âOn the other hand, if this movie were to come out on an opening weekend, being what it is, and itâs supposed to live and die by how many people are going to get out of the house and go see it between Friday and Sunday, then itâs just going to vanish. No oneâs going to go see that movie, and itâs just going to disappear and never be known about. The way itâs going to happen now is itâs going to be all over the fucking world, and itâs going to be there forever, or until China shuts down the internet.â
Blairâs relationship with Netflix is already set to continue. The company snatched up Hold the Dark, which he wrote and Saulnier will direct, last month, and theyâll also distribute the upcoming Small Crimes, which he co-wrote with director Evan Katz. And he hasnât left acting behind, either: Blair has a part in Logan Lucky, Steven Soderberghâs return to filmmaking as well as some other roles lined up. You canât put all your eggs in one basket, after all. When China does shut down the internet, movie theaters will be all weâll have.