The handwritten notes Donald Glover posted on Instagram Monday night – including musings like, “I’m afraid I hate who I really am†and “I’m afraid I’ll regret this†– left some concerned that the Community star was having a mental breakdown. However, he tells People it wasn’t some kind of cry for help. “I had this moment of feeling like, ‘What’s the point? Why am I even here?’ †he explained. “I just wanted to write down my feelings. I definitely was just expressing myself.†He added that he isn’t any more depressed than the average human. “I don’t think those feelings are that different from what everybody’s feeling. Most people just don’t tell everybody,†he said.
Glover wouldn’t elaborate on his comments about not leaving Community to be a rapper, or being sick this year. “I was just tired of telling people I was tired. It felt like every day someone would ask, ‘What’s wrong. Are you OK?’ †he said. “And I would say, ‘I’m tired, I’m tired.’ I didn’t want to do that anymore. I guess sometimes not telling the truth is just as bad as telling a lie.â€
At least one of the items on his long list of fears has not come true, as he doesn’t regret briefly turning Instagram into a place for deep thoughts in addition to Kim Kardashian butt selfies. “I’m glad people saw it. I feel like I got some stuff out there,†he said. “I got it off my chest. It felt like I had been holding on to something.â€