Earlier this month, Billie Eilish surprised fans when she showed up at Coachella, giving a preview of some new music from her upcoming album. The song “Lunch,” which includes the lyrics “I could eat that girl for lunch / Yeah, she dances on my tongue / Tastes like she might be the one / And I can never get enough,” left people wanting more. It also fueled yet another round of conversation about Eilish’s sexual orientation.
In a wide-ranging interview with Rolling Stone published Wednesday, Eilish talked about the song and being attracted to women. “I’ve been in love with girls for my whole life, but I just didn’t understand — until, last year, I realized I wanted my face in a vagina.”
In addition to discussing how much she loves sex (“That shit can really, really save you sometimes, just saying. Can’t recommend it more”), Eilish said, “I should have a Ph.D. in masturbation.” She added that she regularly masturbates in front of a mirror: “Partly because it’s hot, but it also makes me have such a raw, deep connection to myself and my body, and have a love for my body that I have not really ever had.” She also reflected on feeling pressured to talk about her sexuality and label herself. “I was never planning on talking about my sexuality ever, in a million years,” she said. “It’s really frustrating to me that it came up.”
She seemed to be referring to the response to a November interview with Variety in which she talked about loving and being “attracted” to girls “for real” — a statement that some interpreted as her coming out. Weeks later, on the red carpet for a Variety event, she was asked if she intentionally came out in the interview. “No, I didn’t,” she said, noting that she “didn’t realize people didn’t know.” Eilish followed up with an Instagram post accusing Variety of outing her on the red carpet, saying, “I like boys and girls leave me alone about it please literally who cares.” Talking to Rolling Stone about the incident, Eilish said: “It takes a while to find yourself, and I think it’s really unfair, the way that the internet bullies you into talking about who you are and what you are.”