Between multiple reality-television shows and a clan of gabby sisters, there’s no shortage of information about Khloé Kardashian and Lamar Odom’s 2016 divorce. But during Wednesday’s episode of the Khloé in Wonderland podcast, the 40-year-old took the opportunity to rehash things one more time. Kardashian’s guest Mel Robbins prompted the discussion, asking the host if she’d ever been in a situation where she knew she needed to make a tough decision but wasn’t ready to do so.
“I remember I was married, and my ex-husband had a drug addiction … and his addiction always heightened when he was in the off-season, cause idle time is the devil’s playground,” Kardashian responded. “I remember he was asked to go to Team USA, if I remember correctly, and I was begging, ‘Please, please go to Team USA,’ and I was pushing, and I remember he just looked at me and said, ‘You can’t want it more than I do.’”
“It was so profound,” she added. “That was a very pivotal moment in my life because I remember that statement being like … ‘Yeah, you’re right. I can’t want your life more than you.’”
Odom was playing for the Los Angeles Lakers when he and Kardashian got married in 2009. He has admitted to cheating on Kardashian during their marriage and suffered a near-fatal drug overdose in 2015, two years after the couple separated. They finalized their divorce in 2016.
“I wanted it so badly, because I wanted to help him and to get him to feel the motivation and feel good, but he just wasn’t in that place,” Kardashian told Robbins. “It took me a long time to get to, then I had to file for divorce.”
While Kardashian has moved on (she shares two children with ex Tristan Thompson), Odom has continued to make clear in a number of unsettling ways that he really misses his ex-wife. But Kardashian told Robbins she will never again date a drug addict. “It could easily be a slippery slope,” she said.